Life Must Go On

Assalamualaikum

Things that always or atleast once came across to medic student's mind:

"Kenapa aku amik medic? Aku nak berhenti"

Right? But we cannot do anything, thinking all aspect around us, our parents, money that have been spent for fees etc. And at the end we just surviving our ass till the day we are today. 

Alhamdulillah I just finish viva for my final year project in Pre-clinical. It went well. So good. The doctors is so kind. Im blessed. Alhamdulillah. I just need to revise it and put it on hard cover and cawcincaw. Get my beautiful rest after a very long and tiring sem 7. Im not gonna work I promise myself. Petromate and bosses please do not contact me HAHAHA!

Lets get back to the topic. As in my intro. My friends and I think about it quite a lot after struggling and all those tears #cengeng . So why did I came up with this topic. It is because the last appointment with our academic advisor last week was vey touching. I am so touched! (I think it just me) One of my friend kena attack kawkaw during her viva and obviously we tell our AA about this. Then suddenly he tells us few inspiring stories (for me. again)

He keep repeating this sentence "Jalanin aja, Kamu udah sampai ke tahap ini. Maybe there something benefit you in future" . And then he start tell a story about his past student that keep repeating that he (the student) cant survive this whole medical school. Indeed his parents are doctors but he keep telling that this doctor thing is not for him. So our doctor give the same sentence that he give to us to his past student. And after he completed his koass life. Walah he registered himself as cardiology resident. That time my heart, it feels like having an attack by something. Im amaze. 

And then dr. H tells us another story, about his father, he is sick and they bring him to Singapore to get a treatment, the doctors in Singapore know that dr. H is a doctor so they advice him to take care of his father in a hotel room instead in hospital to cut the cost. He said, he feels like a coass life again, infuse, give a close treatment, check all the dosage and wrote all things in a book. He said he was so glad that he is a doctor. 

and. Im amaze. AGAIN.

I never experience death in my big family except my atok but that was when Im 4. I remember I cry not because I saw people wrap atok with white cloth but I cry because I didn't see mama. Mama is in hospital give birth to Izzah, Yes exact time when atok entering liang lahad, Izzah was born. That's why she inherit atok's stubbornness HAHA. I still afraid what will happen in future. We are very close to death. And im afraid that I cant handle those thing. I don't want not to be sad when I see death infront of my eyes. But I cannot cry like a baby infront of the patient. What am I suppose to do? And I also don't know how to react if there something happen with my family in Malaysia. :(

Semoga Allah lindungi keluarga saya selalu. Amin. And guys remember, you are in the middle of the road. Bila pandang belakang gelap, bila pandang depan pun gelap. U get what I mean? Just continue with what you've been through. Semangat!

~NNE