My Only Star

Assalamualaikum 

13082017

I realise something is wrong, and I feel weird because my right hand is empty. I usually realise that U are with me when I take a bath. But.. U are not there!

5 hari... Selongkar every part of my room.  Every single day. And wish u still there with me. But dah 5 hari.. U gone. Awak pergi. Forever.

U have been with me since Form 3. Wow 2010! If U still here kamu dah masuk sekolah rendah! 7 years old :') U are so strong, redah sungai, naik bukit, pergi tempat full of sulphur! I remember how U change color bila react with the sulphur. Masatu kita punya hati tatau nak describe cemana. But Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Ya Allah bila bawa awak balik Malaysia and hantar gi 'klinik', u shine again my baby! Im proud of you. 

I rarely show u off. But awak kena tahu awak paling cantik di mata saya. Last memories kita adalah masa saya lawan badminton minggu lepas. Thank you sebab ada kat sana, bagi semangat. 

Im sorry sometimes I do not realise that U are the one who always with me. Walaupun these past few month, u tend to break yourself and fall apart from me. Alhamdulillah masatu masih perasan lagi and I dont lost you macam sekarang. I know that u are 'sick'. I should just kept you in a safer place and not to push u to be with me. I think because u cant face it anymore, u fall and we seperated away.. far far away 😣

My first bracelet ever. Full of stars! My 15th Birthday Present. From my family 😢

RIP 08052010 - 13112017 . Semoga awak dekat tempat yang selamat sekarang. 

Mungkin ini orang kata.. 

'Only know U love her when U let it go, and U let it go' 💔